[{"content":" Late night snack run. My car is a \u0026lsquo;97 Camry and I love it, though I don\u0026rsquo;t take nearly as much care of it as I should. My sweet boy at the vet after he threw up 5 times in one day. Turns out he was fine but cost me 350$. A car outside the pub, decked out in football decals due to an important game that night. My car wouldn\u0026rsquo;t start in the grocery store carpark, but some worker gave me a jump start from his forklift\u0026rsquo;s battery. Truly my hero\u0026ndash;I was able to make it home in time for my morning meeting at work because of him. A random cat in my neighbourhood I came across during a run. This is the same spot I saw a different cat, many months ago, crawl into that storm drain because I must have gotten too close to it and spooked it. I like to think it\u0026rsquo;s okay\u0026ndash;maybe it\u0026rsquo;s the same cat even; I didn\u0026rsquo;t memorise how it looked back then. I don\u0026rsquo;t smoke in my appartment or on my balcony, so sometimes I gotta be time efficient and sneak a smoke after a run. I must admit it feels utterly ridiculous. The alleyway to a Shisha bar. I went in and had a look, but it was way too expensive for my taste\u0026ndash;plus I\u0026rsquo;m a bit of a nicotine lightweight and those things make me dizzy as fuck. A nice place to set up at the end of a night and drunkenly message your coworker because you\u0026rsquo;re worried they hate you. Yep. As good a place as any for a beer and a smoke. ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/","summary":"\u003cul class=\"image-gallery\"\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eLate night snack run. My car is a \u0026lsquo;97 Camry and I love it, though I don\u0026rsquo;t take nearly as much care of it as I should.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260707_224117_hu_b2adc8bc3fd17d6b.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260707_224117_hu_b2adc8bc3fd17d6b.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"2154\" data-lightbox-h=\"1615\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260707_224117_hu_4ef1e8c6c356000d.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"300\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eMy sweet boy at the vet after he threw up 5 times in one day. Turns out he was fine but cost me 350$.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_135302_hu_49f7f041eceba6b8.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_135302_hu_49f7f041eceba6b8.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1502\" data-lightbox-h=\"2003\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_135302_hu_8319ac5692ca2f38.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"533\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eA car outside the pub, decked out in football decals due to an important game that night.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_154222_hu_409790920f34b4f1.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_154222_hu_409790920f34b4f1.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1816\" data-lightbox-h=\"1362\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260708_154222_hu_c73430e12abe1931.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"300\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eMy car wouldn\u0026rsquo;t start in the grocery store carpark, but some worker gave me a jump start from his forklift\u0026rsquo;s battery. Truly my hero\u0026ndash;I was able to make it home in time for my morning meeting at work because of him.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_085839_hu_621e3a6b70fbedf5.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_085839_hu_621e3a6b70fbedf5.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1713\" data-lightbox-h=\"1284\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_085839_hu_7a6fd071018593a4.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"300\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eA random cat in my neighbourhood I came across during a run. This is the same spot I saw a different cat, many months ago, crawl into that storm drain because I must have gotten too close to it and spooked it. I like to think it\u0026rsquo;s okay\u0026ndash;maybe it\u0026rsquo;s the same cat even; I didn\u0026rsquo;t memorise how it looked back then.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_154433_hu_e85e5dcf3d5c77c.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_154433_hu_e85e5dcf3d5c77c.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1489\" data-lightbox-h=\"1986\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_154433_hu_b201d48c8eb8b2bc.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"534\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eI don\u0026rsquo;t smoke in my appartment or on my balcony, so sometimes I gotta be time efficient and sneak a smoke after a run. I must admit it feels utterly ridiculous.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_164050_hu_80c940b642ad447.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_164050_hu_80c940b642ad447.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1248\" data-lightbox-h=\"1664\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_164050_hu_4934b5ac0440ad18.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"533\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eThe alleyway to a Shisha bar. I went in and had a look, but it was way too expensive for my taste\u0026ndash;plus I\u0026rsquo;m a bit of a nicotine lightweight and those things make me dizzy as fuck.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195029_hu_e761067c1785f0d0.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195029_hu_e761067c1785f0d0.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1543\" data-lightbox-h=\"2057\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195029_hu_3369e8d40b180910.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"533\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eA nice place to set up at the end of a night and drunkenly message your coworker because you\u0026rsquo;re worried they hate you.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195353_hu_4037755af1e3a5c.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195353_hu_4037755af1e3a5c.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1903\" data-lightbox-h=\"1427\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195353_hu_f5475892086bc7f.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"300\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eYep.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195440_hu_2ccc3ddc09a9f4ff.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195440_hu_2ccc3ddc09a9f4ff.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1545\" data-lightbox-h=\"2060\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260709_195440_hu_2eb2b558bdd36cf9.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"533\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\n      \u003cli\u003e\n        \u003cdiv class=\"gallery-desc\" style=\"display:none\"\u003eAs good a place as any for a beer and a smoke.\u003c/div\u003e\u003ca href=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260710_191720_hu_db125c7e0a4ec9e.jpg\" data-lightbox=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260710_191720_hu_db125c7e0a4ec9e.jpg\"\n           data-lightbox-w=\"1836\" data-lightbox-h=\"2448\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"/galleries/random-photos-from-early-july/images/20260710_191720_hu_5de8af7bfe9178c2.jpg\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"\"\n                 width=\"400\" height=\"533\"\u003e\n        \u003c/a\u003e\n      \u003c/li\u003e\n\u003c/ul\u003e","title":"Random Photos from Early July"},{"content":"Last night, I was sitting alone at a bar trying to decompress after a stressful week. I was drinking and smoking and had half-heartedly made some plans to sit and write a blog post or something, but I knew I probably was just going to doom scroll alone, surrounded by others but alone.\nBut against my best efforts to be a loner, an old man struck up a conversation with me. He bought me jugs of beer and I provided him cigarettes. It was objectively a worse deal for him, but he insisted it was fine.\nIt must be a rule of life that when you become an old man, you\u0026rsquo;re obliged to give out free advice to strangers at a pub. Because this seems to happen to me more often than not.\nSome advice I received last night, from someone who supposedly has travelled the world, lived in half a dozen different countries, made millions and jumped at career changes left, right, and centre:\nI should concern myself more with money, and not be so naïve as to think money doesn\u0026rsquo;t concern me. After all, the world revolves around it. Take life by the balls, especially when I have nothing left to lose. Go to Japan, leave the past behind, and take any new opportunities as they come. Stop sitting in the background, and start believing I have the ability to be myself. The man I want to be. This got me thinking obviously, because it\u0026rsquo;s true: I am a pretty hesitant person. I lack the kind of self-confidence required to get what I really want out of life.\nSo what is it I want out of life? I want to leave a list here:\nTravel. I want to immerse myself in whatever cultures I find fascinating. Fitness. I don\u0026rsquo;t ever want to be held back because of my health. Kindness. I want to treat people with the same kindness that so many have given to me. Teaching. I have always wanted to spread the joy of maths and science, especially to those who\u0026rsquo;ve been burned by it, or haven\u0026rsquo;t seen the beauty in it yet. Enough money. I don\u0026rsquo;t think I\u0026rsquo;m necessarily huffing copium when I say I\u0026rsquo;m not interested in being wealthy. But money affords opportunities and comfort, of which I want both. Free thinker. I won\u0026rsquo;t end up like one of those old people who are prime targets for misinformation on Facebook or big media corporations. The list is not as well thought out as I\u0026rsquo;d like at this point, but I will continue to review and refine it. But to help cement the idea, I\u0026rsquo;ve included a list of things I don\u0026rsquo;t want in my life as well.\nDon\u0026rsquo;t be a slave. I simply cannot continue being a slave to addiction. It is just not something I can continue to let happen to me. Don\u0026rsquo;t stagnate. I\u0026rsquo;m personally okay to be comfortable in my job, or treat it as a means to an end. But outside the context of work, I don\u0026rsquo;t ever want to stop learning and improving. Don\u0026rsquo;t be afraid. I won\u0026rsquo;t let my personal fears, especially a fear of the unknown or anxious thoughts about my capabilities, get in the way of opportunities if they are out there. A couple things I\u0026rsquo;ve left undecided for now:\nDo I want to have kids one day? Is there a future where I can be responsible with my drinking, or is it a lost cause? That\u0026rsquo;s all for now, I guess. I have these values of mine written down and that\u0026rsquo;s all I can do for the time being. Maybe later I can revisit this list and reflect a bit more deeply.\nAt the end of the day, I won\u0026rsquo;t change overnight. Maybe being the man I want to be consists of lots of small changes, and lots of mistakes. Each day is a new day and all I can do is aim to be a little bit better each time I wake up.\nt\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/the-man-i-want-to-be/","summary":"Let me give it some thought.","title":"The man I want to be"},{"content":"I want to keep here just a simple list of things I worry about to some degree in most interactions, and some valid counterpoints I want to keep in mind. These aren\u0026rsquo;t in any particular order, and I was originally going to draw pictures for all of them, but I\u0026rsquo;m way too lazy for that.\nThe point of this is, I realise how much more concrete something feels after I\u0026rsquo;ve written it down and put it out there. So to that point, I want to be able to reflect on something tangible\u0026ndash;something I can physically see to remind myself how ridiculous I\u0026rsquo;m being at times.\nHaving a life that\u0026rsquo;s difficult to share Starting strong. I don\u0026rsquo;t think I\u0026rsquo;m a boring person. I like what I like. What I like is often pretty particular and doesn\u0026rsquo;t involve a lot of things other people like.\nFor instance, I was once having a group dinner with someone who studied music and arts. Everyone was enthralled by this person\u0026rsquo;s field of expertise, and it got even better because they were able to sit down at the piano and play some music for the group. This is a speciality you can share with other people, and it\u0026rsquo;s universally loved (as long as you\u0026rsquo;re any good). In my degree, I specialised in abstract algebra. Nothing to share, nothing to relate, not a single story or demonstration you can whip out to get the average person even somewhat interested. But that\u0026rsquo;s OK. My other hobbies usually revolve around technology, listening to bands most people don\u0026rsquo;t really know, running. Well, it\u0026rsquo;s not exactly easy to open up. When someone asks me how my weekend was, how do I respond to that without sending them to sleep? I keep it short, simple, and say \u0026ldquo;pretty good\u0026rdquo;.\nThe way I see it, there are a couple ways to improve this situation. One obvious way is to make new friends. Make friends who have similar interests to mine. I know for a fact there are maths clubs at the university I graduated from. There are computer clubs, run clubs, bars that play the music I like. I just have to get myself out there.\nAnd for my friends who I don\u0026rsquo;t share many interests with, maybe I just have to dig deeper and find something we can both relate to. And the way to do that is to ask more questions and get to know people better. This could turn me from someone who is boring, into someone who is a really good listener. And that\u0026rsquo;s a step up, I guess.\nHaving bad breath Bad breath Of all the irrational fears on this list, this one probably sits at the top. I don\u0026rsquo;t know why, but I\u0026rsquo;m constantly terrified my breath smells. I\u0026rsquo;ve never had a comment or anything else that would suggest this is the case. But nonetheless, I am so self-conscious it stops me from talking to people in close quarters unless I\u0026rsquo;m chewing some gum.\nSimple answer to this is to just always chew gum. And I definitely used to do that, but for some reason I was so lazy to spit out the gum that I kept swallowing it and I got worried I was ruining my gut. But I\u0026rsquo;m pretty sure I\u0026rsquo;m good. Anyways, I should definitely spit that out. I gotta remember to start chewing gum again\u0026ndash;not because I think this is a real problem, but it\u0026rsquo;s a mental thing for sure.\nDifficulty hearing the other person I should probably get my hearing checked. Either that, or I\u0026rsquo;m just so damn anxious all the time I\u0026rsquo;m spending more time worrying and not enough time actually listening to what people are saying. I often find myself flat out not having a fucking clue what someone in front of me has just said, especially at loud bars. I look around at the group and not a single person is having difficulty.\nSo I should get this looked at.\nTalking for too long Talking for too long Something that irks me about some people is when they don\u0026rsquo;t get to the point of their story. It\u0026rsquo;s true that some people just waffle on and on. Maybe their story is good, often it\u0026rsquo;s mid. But when you\u0026rsquo;re describing the exact flavour of donut you were eating, and how it was a limited-time offer from Krispy Kreme\u0026hellip; when the story only requires me to know that you were eating something, I just don\u0026rsquo;t understand how that\u0026rsquo;s relevant. It doesn\u0026rsquo;t improve the story at all, it just makes it longer.\nMaybe I overcorrect in this respect, because listening to people tell stories that are needlessly long compels me to keep my stories awfully short. Even to the point that I\u0026rsquo;m skipping lots of details that probably matter a little bit. I skip right to the point in a lot of cases which probably leaves the overall story a bit underwhelming.\nThe answer to this one: if people tell long stories and get away with it, why can\u0026rsquo;t I tell a medium-length story? I can indulge a little, surely? It really doesn\u0026rsquo;t have to be one end of the spectrum or the other.\nBeing responsible for the conversation I worry about whether the group\u0026rsquo;s having fun, when I\u0026rsquo;m out with the boys drinking, or when I\u0026rsquo;m with family watching a movie, or with the group having dinner, or literally any scenario with a group. Whether it was my idea, someone close to me\u0026rsquo;s idea, or just a Friday drinks, I always find myself stressing about lulls in the conversation, or if someone looks tired.\nIt\u0026rsquo;s got nothing to do with me. When I\u0026rsquo;m in a group of 5, say, I should be responsible for contributing 20% of the conversation. If I\u0026rsquo;m in a large group, I can probably get away with contributing very very little, because nobody\u0026rsquo;s going to be paying attention to me! This one is ridiculous, I know. I just need to remember that the group doesn\u0026rsquo;t depend on me, it depends on the venue, the other people, the food/drink\u0026hellip; there are a lot more factors that go into it than me solely.\nHaving nothing interesting to say Having nothing interesting to say This is somewhat related to \u0026ldquo;having a life that\u0026rsquo;s difficult to share\u0026rdquo;, but also kind of not. But I\u0026rsquo;ll keep it short.\nI don\u0026rsquo;t have a fucking clue how some people have SO much to talk about. They\u0026rsquo;ll share a story of their friend doing something crazy on the weekend, or how their boss did something crazy at work, or how they saw a crazy person on the street, or whatever! I swear to god, something interesting happens to me maybe once a week, so it\u0026rsquo;s very quick to fill my mum in on the phone when she calls me every month and I tell her what\u0026rsquo;s going on in my life. But on the other hand, when I\u0026rsquo;m hearing about someone\u0026rsquo;s month, they\u0026rsquo;ll find sooooo much stuff to talk about, I\u0026rsquo;m just sitting there going \u0026ldquo;wow, that\u0026rsquo;s crazy\u0026rdquo;.\nDo I need to start noticing my surroundings more?\nForgetting someone\u0026rsquo;s name and it\u0026rsquo;s too late Well this is probably classic, but it kind of happens to me a lot. I usually just leave it until it\u0026rsquo;s way too awkward to ask their name again, because we\u0026rsquo;ve hung out in the group a bunch of times. Then I guess it\u0026rsquo;s time to ask someone else who I can trust, \u0026ldquo;hey, this is awkward, but what\u0026rsquo;s that guy\u0026rsquo;s name?\u0026rdquo;. Well, I should do that, but I also don\u0026rsquo;t care sometimes. I should care more.\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/things-that-make-me-socially-anxious-and-why-im-probably-stupid/","summary":"Just a simple list of things I worry about to some degree in most interactions, and some valid counterpoints I want to keep in mind.","title":"Things that make me socially anxious and why I'm probably stupid"},{"content":"We put far too much trust in the people managing our online data.\nFor context, in Australia, you have to provide age verification if you want to access social media or porn sites. This has been the case for a couple of years now and I personally find it fucking stupid beyond belief - for a few reasons.\nAge verification comprises a full front picture of your face, or in some cases a \u0026ldquo;video selfie\u0026rdquo; or picture of a government-issued ID card. This is done through a third-party company, like Yoti, AgeGo, or K-ID, which seem to do this in a privacy-focused way (i.e. deleting your images after they\u0026rsquo;ve been assessed, only sending back over or under to the site requesting verification, etc.). I have two issues with this:\nWe are normalising the process of scanning your face whenever you want to use a website that has been blocked. This offers an extremely dangerous opportunity for bad actors to mimic trustworthy services and steal your personal data, including images of your face. If you\u0026rsquo;re a random porn site, impersonating a company like Yoti is trivial, and your data could be used against you when tied to your browsing habits\u0026ndash;potentially even from other sites that share tracking cookies. If we normalise this kind of behaviour, who knows what kinds of new scams will become possible in the future? It is very easy to get around this. People report extremely simple workarounds such as wearing a mask, using images from a video game, or in some cases just using their real face and the system gets it wrong sometimes. Or you know, just use a VPN. To anyone remotely switched on, this isn\u0026rsquo;t a big problem. Funnily enough, the people this is supposed to be protecting, teenagers, won\u0026rsquo;t have an issue bypassing this. For the vulnerable older demographic, this is actively threatening their privacy. This whole thing is having the complete opposite effect to what it was designed for.\nHere\u0026rsquo;s another reason this is fucked up: this ban doesn\u0026rsquo;t include all sites. Of course, how could it? No, it blocks popular social media and porn sites: think Facebook, Instagram, Pornhub, etc. In other words, the kinds of sites that have a solid reputation anyway are the ones being blocked. So if you want to get around this in a pinch, you actively have to seek out the deeper sites; stray further from the regulated options and towards something much darker. This is obviously, obviously not good. I don\u0026rsquo;t even need to spell out how dangerous this is.\nThis isn\u0026rsquo;t the worst of it though. While currently it\u0026rsquo;s fairly simple to get around age verification prompts by just using a VPN, this might not be the case forever. The Australian government\u0026rsquo;s eSafety guidelines recently conducted the Age Assurance Technology Trial, and make it clear they want to crack down on these simple workarounds. They are threatening platforms to adopt more aggressive strategies to infer a user\u0026rsquo;s age. This would include things like actively tracking your behaviour to guess your age.\neSafety supports a response that involves all services, products, and platforms, such as devices’ operating systems, app stores, and search engines, in reducing access to content that may not be age appropriate\nAt this point, it\u0026rsquo;s the platform that has access to your login patterns, the language you use, the kinds of people you interact with, and things like that. In a world where wide-scale data breaches are announced seemingly every week, this is concerning to say the least. The reports even actively discuss pushing these checks down the chain to the device level: your operating system, your app stores, or even straight through your ISP. They openly cite models where mobile network operators just block everything by default until you verify yourself.\nThere\u0026rsquo;s no call to action here.\nt\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/social-media-bans-endanger-everyones-privacy/","summary":"A network of trust is only as strong as the weakest link","title":"Social media bans endanger everyone's privacy"},{"content":"This is where unfortunate souls retreat to regenerate enough aura to continue on their journeys.\nChoppa gets severe motion sickness. His friend was giving him a lift home on his motorcycle and Choppa threw up all over his friend\u0026rsquo;s back. Choppa suffered complete aura death and has to spend many more years in the hall to recover. Before the incident, Choppa had a lot of aura, but now he has none. Choppa Ernest is Choppa\u0026rsquo;s brother. He\u0026rsquo;s here because he put his bins out on the wrong day, fell into a puddle of mud while he was taking them out, then went back to sleep without having a shower. His wife made him wash the sheets and berated him for not being considerate. Ernest Glabe never had any aura to begin with. He is afraid of people, money, and things. He also smells like hamburgers because it is the only food he is not afraid of. Glabe Mermin is here on account of having a fucking stupid name. He also tried to rob a bank but forgot to bring a duffel bag for the cash. Mermin Unct had his pants fall down when he stood up to greet his girlfriend\u0026rsquo;s parents. Unct Vickadu was at the office one day and had some stomach issues. He went to use the bathroom, completely destroyed the toilet, and realised there was no air freshener. When he came out, his colleague was already lined up to use the toilet next and went in straight away. Ever since that moment, his colleague knew Vickadu was responsible for something awful\u0026ndash;at the medical level. Vickadu Wallace was at a house party, trying to decide what to grab from the charcuterie board, when his quads gave out (yesterday was leg day) and came crashing down onto the table, ruining the charcuterie for everyone. To make matters worse, he was inconsolable and wouldn\u0026rsquo;t stop crying. He had to walk home with french dip all over his good pants. Wallace ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/galleries/the-hall-of-lost-aura/","summary":"This is where unfortunate souls retreat to regenerate enough aura to continue on their journeys.","title":"The Hall of Lost Aura"},{"content":"As usual, simple plans for a few drinks turned into a much longer night out than I was expecting, but that\u0026rsquo;s OK. I went to a few of my favourite bars, got a Tarot reading, and decided to walk home along the river.\nHow the night started - I picked up this beer because it looked to me like a Lie bracket We were invited to a random underground bar where they were doing Tarot card readings for 10$. I had never done it before, but figure what the hell. She told me my outcome was the Priestess and I should meditate near water. The same bar was also selling some\u0026hellip; interesting drinks. A friend and I partook in a couple of syringe shots and a mystery shot. Ended up in this metal bar, honstly don\u0026rsquo;t remember why some guy was handed a printout of the bartender\u0026rsquo;s face, but figured I\u0026rsquo;d get a pic. Random bar Kebab place The bathroom at my favourite bar. It smells so bad in there. I had to take an hour long phone call in here once because outside was too loud for the person on the other end. Smoking at my favourite bar. I\u0026rsquo;m not meant to be doing this. This guy\u0026rsquo;s pants looked pretty cool. The urinal at another, even dodgier bar around the corner. Karaoke at yet another bar. The bouncer at this bar said I looked tired. The public bathroom in the strip mall. I don\u0026rsquo;t know why I took so many pictures of bathrooms this particular night\u0026hellip; The cops outside Carl\u0026rsquo;s Jr. A road beginning my walk home. I could have taken a bus or a ride, but I wanted to finish my drunk cigs so I don\u0026rsquo;t waste them. Walking across the bridge. A view of the city from the bridge. Another view of the city and the river. The Tarot card lady said I need to meditate near a body of water, so I did. My phone died after taking this photo. ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/galleries/night-out-in-july/","summary":"As usual, simple plans for a few drinks turned into a much longer night out than I was expecting, but that\u0026rsquo;s OK. I went to a few of my favourite bars, got a Tarot reading, and decided to walk home along the river.","title":"Night out in July"},{"content":" Grant Schemathings Paul Mefinger Lee Govlegends Vin Daloo Sue Premepizza Jay Bihifi Nile Eleven Mia Rection João Wacap ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/the-dumbest-names-to-call-your-kid/","summary":"Also quite likely the dumbest post on this blog.","title":"The dumbest names to call your kid"},{"content":"Sometimes a song just really tickles the old noggin. When I\u0026rsquo;m listening to music and one of these songs come on, I get genuinely excited. In no particular order (and I will definitely come back and add to this list through the years):\nStinkfist - Tool This happens to be my most played track, and it never gets old. My favourite part is the buildup throughout the middle of the song, and I usually make sure it\u0026rsquo;s the final song of any running race playlist I make. Just so satisfying to run to that guitar passage in the last minute or two.\nCloset - Fleshwater This song is only like 1-2 minutes, but that\u0026rsquo;s kind of what makes it such a treat. It manages to pack a lot in such a short time frame in a way that doesn\u0026rsquo;t feel rushed or anything. It\u0026rsquo;s heavy, catchy, short, and sweet. Somehow feels nostalgic too, even though I only discovered this song a couple years ago.\nSugar - System of a Down This song is just so stupid. It\u0026rsquo;s fun, heavy, dumb, meme-able, I dunno\u0026hellip; bouncy?\nATWA - System of a Down A bit of a more substantial System of a Down song, but still really fun. I really like the simple guitar riff and the way Serj and Daron\u0026rsquo;s voices work together. It\u0026rsquo;s also pretty heavy in parts, which scratches my brain!\nBartzabel - Behemoth Another song that feels\u0026hellip; bouncy. I don\u0026rsquo;t know how else to describe it. Also the lyrics are just a verbatim reciting of some ancient spell which I think is pretty metal 🤘\nMy Name is Mud - Primus This is another really, really stupid song. But something about the way Les Claypool plays the bass, particularly in this song, just really scratches my brain. It\u0026rsquo;s also kind of metal.\nNegative Creep - Nirvana Nirvana is probably my first \u0026ldquo;band\u0026rdquo;. Or at least the first one I got obsessed with in High School. And after listening to every album of theirs countless times, I always come back to Bleach\u0026ndash;their first one. It\u0026rsquo;s almost more metal, definitely sludgier, doomier, and I\u0026rsquo;m obsessed with Kurt\u0026rsquo;s vocals and how downtuned and distorted the guitars are. This is the perfect track to hear this side of Nirvana on, in my opinion. Also just really enjoy how half the song is just blood-curdling screaming for some reason.\nState of Love and Trust - Pearl Jam A lot of songs on this list are stupid, but this one isn\u0026rsquo;t. This song just makes me feel a certain type of way, I think Eddie\u0026rsquo;s delivery of the lyrics just hit. Also, the MTV unplugged performance is just a masterclass on aura farming. That\u0026rsquo;s all I really have to say about that.\nStranger by the Minute - Porcupine Tree A bit of a deeper Porcupine Tree song, but I just really enjoy the harmonies on the guitars, the vocals, and the kind of wall-of-sound feeling. It is just a really pleasant song, no notes.\nSuffocate - Knocked Loose Coming back to the DUMB songs, this one is DUMB. But in such a fucking awesome way. This song really really gets me pumped. The Jimmy Kimmel performance is also just hilariously heavy, over the top, and DUMB. I think Bryan and Poppy\u0026rsquo;s voices work really well together: they are both good at screaming.\nElephant - bôa I just wanted to say I LOVE this album, it is just a perfect 10/10 album, but this track always makes me happy, but kind of in a bittersweet way. I saw this song live last year too, and the band played a really nice extended version, asking the crowd to help vocalise making for a really special moment. So this one is pretty close to my heart, and I will always love bôa ❤️\nBullet in the Head - Rage Against the Machine This is a little bit of a deeper track, but I don\u0026rsquo;t think it\u0026rsquo;s fair to say RATM have any deep tracks especially considering they only have a small handful of albums. But compared to their other really popular songs, this one I feel is just stronger, better, funkier, bappier, cooler. A classic.\nArriving Somewhere But Not Here - Porcupine Tree The first time I heard this song, I instantly fell in love. This was my first ever Porcupine Tree, and now they are probably my favourite band. I\u0026rsquo;ve never looked back. I love the way the every instrument punches in after the initial intro, playing the same riff but bringing an entire wall of sound along with it that just goes straight into your soul. The song has some really mindblowing guitar solos too, and the soundscape is just masterful. Everything about this song is 10/10.\nA history of Bad Men - Melvins This song really scratches my brain. Similar to Bleach by Nirvana, this album is just insanely heavy and sludgy, and the hypermasculine vocals are really appealing to me. Listening to this song makes me feel like a total badass.\nDemon of the Fall - Opeth This is not the flashiest or most popular Opeth song, but it still has all the elements. The scary death vocals, the dreamy clean melodies at the end too. I love how many Opeth recordings are concept albums and this one is no different. I like to imagine a ghost hunting someone down in an autumn forest while this song is playing, it really intensifies the spook factor.\nGone Away - The Offspring I admittedly don\u0026rsquo;t listen to The Offspring as much as I should. I\u0026rsquo;m not super familiar with their game\u0026ndash;but I know all the popular ones. This song sticks out to me though as maybe something more personal (well, okay most of their songs are pretty deep, but I can\u0026rsquo;t explain really how this one sticks out to me). I really enjoy the singer\u0026rsquo;s singing voice in this song, I wasn\u0026rsquo;t immediately aware from their other works but this guy has some serious pipes.\nBuying New Soul (Live) - Porcupine Tree Particularly from their Arriving Somewhere Live album, this is such a great song. You gotta have John Wesley and Steven Wilson on vocals together, they just make for such a magical sound. Combined with Richard Barbieri masterful sound design and everything else coming together, this song just makes me transcend. The acoustic guitar is so nice too, and the way Steven belts it at the hard-hitting moments, and refrains in other moments, it\u0026rsquo;s just such a dynamic song.\nSweet Charity - Mr. Bungle Mr. Bungle is just plain old weird. This album reels it in a little bit, but at times I just don\u0026rsquo;t really know what I\u0026rsquo;m listening to any more. I can\u0026rsquo;t really figure out what it is I like about listening to these guys, particularly when their music just goes in all sorts of different directions, but I like it! This one just has a really fun sound to it, I\u0026rsquo;m just obsessed with Mike Patton\u0026rsquo;s voice on this album. It almost has an old-timey quality to it\u0026hellip; if something was just kinda off. I love singing along to this one, especially the BUM BADUM bits. Well, it\u0026rsquo;s hard to describe this one so I\u0026rsquo;ll just leave it that.\nThe Flood - Leprous It\u0026rsquo;s tough to pick between this song and \u0026ldquo;The Price\u0026rdquo; off the same album. But this one just has a really rich soundscape to it, and the lyrics are really moody\u0026ndash;just the way I like my Leprous. But I really can\u0026rsquo;t get past the beautifully picked sound of the guitars, keyboard, everything happening in the background just makes this song. Especially the passage leading up to the little intermission in the middle of the song, it just builds up beautifully. But the real winner is the way the instrument breakdown toward the end of the song switches tempo and turns into something you can really bang your head to. You could even dance to it if you wanted to.\nBorn in Winter - Gojira This one is moody as hell. I can sit in my brooding corner, throw my hood up, and close my eyes. The guitar melody throughout the song is really addicting (i.e. brain scratching) and Joe\u0026rsquo;s voice is low and intimate before the song switches gears and goes into a more traditional Gojira style. It\u0026rsquo;s short, simple, but dynamic and very satisfying to listen to.\nReign Me In - Sam Fender \u0026amp; Olivia Dean I know this is a really obvious pick considering how insanely popular this song is at the time of writing. But I would be extremely remiss if I didn\u0026rsquo;t add it to the list because god-damn does it fit the bill. I don\u0026rsquo;t really need to say much more, you get it.\nSilver Springs - Fleetwood Mac Another obvious pick probably, but there is something very, very, enchanting about Stevie Nicks and her voice. And this song in particular stands out as\u0026hellip; enchanting. Welp, there you go, the most basic statement in human history 🫡\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/songs-that-scratch-my-brain/","summary":"In a good way\u0026ndash;my brain is itchy!","title":"Songs that scratch my brain"},{"content":"I\u0026rsquo;ve never written an essay outside the context of school, but this is something I have been thinking about for a long time and something that is very important to me. If we are not careful in the next decade, I worry we are going to lose much of the information and culture we have cultivated over the last thirty years on the internet. It won\u0026rsquo;t be a quick and painless death either, it will be a slow, drawn out, and silent death. Maybe nobody cares, but I think it is an enormous blunder to overlook what is already starting to happen.\nThe internet is eating itself from the inside out by way of regurgitated information being back fed into large language models, a vicious cycle that not nearly enough people are paying mind to. It causes the closure of a wealth of legitimate internet forums, a place for information and culture to be shared over decades in many cases. Together with the out-of-hand profitability of social media, people are flocking to private social websites or Discord servers, where someone must register for an account and sign in before viewing the discussions there. The public internet as we know it is already mostly dead, or full of bots, and this is the data LLMs publicly have available to train on. It is not difficult to see that this is a very bad thing for the information age. There is no new real discussion being had, as most people will simply ask ChatGPT for an answer to their problem, which has no footprint on the rest of the internet, no evidence of the interaction happening, hence no contribution to our collective knowledge.\nEvery week, it seems I hear of yet another forum closing down. Take for instance the RPG Maker forums, who announced their closure on June 11, 2026 without any plans to publicly archive decades of posts. This one hits hard, as someone who knows the feeling of having a very niche problem, surely too niche, but seeing some random guy on one of these types of forums from 15 years ago having the exact same problem and describing a fix for it. Nothing could ever beat that feeling, and it\u0026rsquo;s something an LLM would never get me. It\u0026rsquo;s something I\u0026rsquo;d never find by having to register to a dozen different sites and communities to struggle to search through their private interfaces in desperate hope. The magic of public search engines is a universal, hyperefficient, way to find exactly what you\u0026rsquo;re looking for on the clearnet!\nYou might be reading this and think Reddit is a decent solution to this problem. You\u0026rsquo;d not be entirely wrong, however trusting a single corporate giant to host the world\u0026rsquo;s information and discourse would be a huge mistake. The platform already struggles with politics regarding API restrictions causing entire subreddits to shut down and users anonymising their accounts and posts. Subreddits suffer in the same way that old forums do, just for different reasons, often rooted in politics or lack of moderation. The only difference in the end is Reddit is just an overall more cumbersome experience: it wants you to register and sign in to read more than a few lines of a post, it is frustrating to view more than a dozen replies in a comment chain. I would be remiss if I didn\u0026rsquo;t mention the upvote/downvote system which can be seen as a blessing or a curse; in some sense the most upvoted comment being at the top can help you easily find what you want, but it can also push all other replies down. Potentially the popular answer is not always the best answer, especially considering the hive mind of typical Redditor logic.\nMany developers are choosing not to open-source their projects these days, or at least flat-out ignore community pull requests. With the rise of agentic coding, aspiring developers are contributing poor quality code to popular open-source projects in an overwhelming volume. The maintainers of such projects simply don\u0026rsquo;t have time to manually review each and every bit of AI-generated code which often completely disregards code/architectural conventions or decisions made by the original team. The simplest response, unfortunately, is to just close your project off. This completely disincentivises legitimate developers with real contributions to open source, and it directly encourages new projects to be kept closed.\nSo what\u0026rsquo;s left for LLMs to train on? Without having inside knowledge of these big tech company\u0026rsquo;s internal practices, I can only hope one thing. Because unless they are already taking action, we\u0026rsquo;d be at risk of a so-called self-consuming training loop where models are fed their own generated content online, as it becomes more and more prevalent, causing an entire model collapse over generations. My idea is that OpenAI, Anthropic, and all those companies have a system that assesses conversations with users, in particular detecting when a user is asking for help and engaging with the AI to arrive at a solution. There is a great deal of data these companies have, rich for performing sentimental analysis on whether the AI was able to fix the user\u0026rsquo;s issue or not. The problem is, I\u0026rsquo;ve never had an AI ask me, \u0026ldquo;did this fix your issue, yes/no?\u0026rdquo;\u0026ndash;usually I just close that chat as soon as I have what I want. This kind of behaviour needs to be accounted for as well during any kind of sentiment analysis I hope these companies are performing and using that data to train the next generation of models. If AI companies are not doing this, they are making a huge mistake, so I am hopeful that something is being done.\nA serpent eating its own tail What can be done? First thing\u0026rsquo;s first, we have to protect good sites like the Internet Archive and the Wikimedia Foundation at all costs. These are non-profit organisations aimed at curating information and preserving this decaying internet. Communities like r/DataHoarder are also a great movement for people looking to preserve information, particularly that at risk of becoming lost media.\nSomething I want, but probably lack the means, is a Discord bot to take off. It would be installed by admins of tech-or-forum-style Discord servers with the intention of crawling the Discord-style boards (which is private from the clearnet), and publishing a mirror copy on a public (can be read-only) website somewhere accessible to Google searches, optionally LLMs. I think this would be a great step in the right direction, as a decentralised copy of all the information that inevitably flies completely under the radar in the countless Discord servers that are ever-increasingly popular. I\u0026rsquo;m sure this would come with its own concerns, though please reach out if you would like to help with something like this.\nFinally, we could all serve to just post our questions and answers to public sites a bit more. I understand it is a lot more convenient to simply ask ChatGPT to get a quick answer, and maybe that\u0026rsquo;s OK for common questions. Though brute-forcing its way through a half-baked solution to a niche question is surely not the way. If you have a niche solution to a problem you found yourself, consider posting it somewhere!\nI\u0026rsquo;m not against LLMs as a tool, especially because it is undeniably convenient for common problems, synthesising documentation, and things of that nature. I made use of AI to customise this website from a template, so I can\u0026rsquo;t pretend I\u0026rsquo;m above it at all. My concern is with unchecked, automated systems running rampant on our internet, replacing genuine human contribution. If we completely stop documenting our existence in public spaces, we run a very real risk of a new dark age of information\u0026ndash;and be left in complete and utter turmoil at how we squandered what we once had.\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/the-squandering-of-the-information-age/","summary":"One of the wonders of the world is going down.","title":"The squandering of the information age"},{"content":"Ever since my early twenties, I found myself turning to alcohol as a way to treat a kind of social anxiety. Initially, it was the kind that I just didn\u0026rsquo;t want to talk to people I don\u0026rsquo;t have anything in common with, so I\u0026rsquo;d chug down a glass of wine before they arrived for the party or whatever, and I was set for the rest of the night. But as the years passed, and I kept up with this habit, it started to self-prophesy into a considerably larger problem. I was finding it difficult to speak to anyone, even my friends and family. Unless, of course, I kept drinking.\nBy all accounts, my drinking never reached dangerous levels to myself\u0026ndash;certainly not to others. Though after over ten years of binge-drinking to fuel a desperate want to connect with others, I shouldn\u0026rsquo;t have been too surprised to find some liver damage in a recent checkup.\nI do pretty well when I abstain from alcohol completely, as a rule mostly by avoiding more social outings than I should. I have been seeing a psychologist for the last year, working to improve my social anxiety. For the record, my liver is fine now, I abstained for over three months after they detected signs of fatty liver, and I have been much healthier since.\nBut I don\u0026rsquo;t want to quit drinking forever. It makes me happy, calm, socially fulfilled. And honestly the hangovers aren\u0026rsquo;t even something that bothers me.\nBut there\u0026rsquo;s one thing that helps manage the drinking. For the better half of three years, I\u0026rsquo;ve been an avid runner. I initially started running in combination with diet to lose weight, but it just kind of stuck. To the point where I do multiple races every year, and even finished my first marathon just three weeks ago. I\u0026rsquo;ve already been at my target weight, give or take, for a year and a half, but I just keep running anyway. The reason, I think, is that running makes me happy and calm in a similar way that alcohol does. That, and it obviously helps keep me at my happy weight.\nUsually it goes like this:\nI buy a ticket for a race as soon as I\u0026rsquo;m able to after the previous race is finished; so I always have something to train toward. I train as a means to feel that I\u0026rsquo;m not throwing away money. I benefit from the training in my mental health and my physical health. I abstain from drinking on and off while training, depending on how serious the race is. But I do go through cycles of heavy binging followed by lower consumption. Drinking impacts my performance significantly, most likely due to poor sleep. It also wastes a lot of my money. I\u0026rsquo;ve summarised it in this graph.\nIt\u0026rsquo;s somewhat satisfying to see it laid out like this. In maths terms, I suppose this is a directed graph on six nodes. A couple of quick observations:\nThe node with the highest in-degree is my brain; my mental health is affected most by the system (for better or for worse). The node with the highest out-degree is the booze; it is affecting the most. Physical and mental health nodes have null out-degree; they aren\u0026rsquo;t depicted as externally affecting anything, but that\u0026rsquo;s not to say in reality they don\u0026rsquo;t internally affect everything. Something else that\u0026rsquo;s interesting is the associativity of the relationships the arrows represent. Observe for instance that the race tickets are not actually needed. You can easily cut them out and direct the arrow directly from money to running, expressing the relationship \u0026ldquo;money buys motivation\u0026rdquo;.\nI\u0026rsquo;m sure there are lots of graph theory tricks you could apply to this thing, but what happens if you try removing alcohol?\nWell, immediately it\u0026rsquo;s clear that our running and health are no longer impacted negatively. We are also not wasting as much money.\nSo this should be a clear win for me, right? I\u0026rsquo;m not so convinced.\nThe effect alcohol has on my mental health, I know, is surely bad on paper. It\u0026rsquo;s the reason I\u0026rsquo;m in this mess, and it\u0026rsquo;s the reason it got worse. But it\u0026rsquo;s also the most surefire, comfortable way to unwind after a busy week, or loosen up and laugh with friends. I\u0026rsquo;d much rather manage the booze than eliminate it entirely.\nSo if I can find ways to only drink strategically, on days when it will have minimal impact to my running, that\u0026rsquo;s a good start. Binging less on nights that I do drink will naturally help me spend less money and my health will be better off for it, even if slightly. The truth is, I find that limiting my alcohol throughout the month and saving it all for a few tactical nights just makes me drink way too much on those nights and go way overboard with it. I don\u0026rsquo;t really think there is one big, important change I can make that will solve everything, without quitting entirely forever.\nDo I have any key takeaways from this? No. I just thought by typing this, I could gain some insight, which I\u0026rsquo;d say I have. Even if only a bit. I can come back to this post in a year\u0026rsquo;s time and see if these thoughts and ideas still hold up. Who knows, maybe I will have more to add later.\nFor now, I\u0026rsquo;m just going to continue making small improvements.\nt\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/money-health-and-vices/","summary":"A web of friction I find myself in constantly, and how I cope with it all.","title":"Money, health, and vices"},{"content":" My daily driver currently, Gentoo on Wayland and LabWC. I think this window manager is fantastic. It\u0026rsquo;s highly configurable but also really simple out of the box. I grew very tired of tiling WMs and pretending I don\u0026rsquo;t use my mouse. I like using the mouse and I like floating windows god damnit! There, I said it! The wallpaper is some mid 2000s weeb nostalgia, and I themed the WM around Windows XP because hell yeah. Gentoo \u0026#43; Clannad \u0026#43; LabWC Gentoo Linux with KDE. My first time having the patience to compile a web browser and full DE, but I installed it to a slow SSD so things weren\u0026rsquo;t as fast as I thought they\u0026rsquo;d be. Gentoo \u0026#43; KDE Lain-inspired desktop running on FreeBSD on a Thinkpad T14. Open to the side in Neovim is an original Game of Life implementation in Common Lisp, which is featured on the original show. The code is at least as old as 1995 (as it\u0026rsquo;s listed here as new_walk.cl) but is probably older and I don\u0026rsquo;t think the origin is known. Lain \u0026#43; Conway\u0026#39;s Game of Life Slackware 10.1 and KDE 3.3.2 authentically sourced and run on an old Pentium machine. I\u0026rsquo;m coding in OCaml on Emacs in this screenshot, which is not something I am familiar with, but it felt right and seems unique to me. I was also able to get the modern internet working in Mozilla by connecting the old machine to a Raspberry Pi which interfaced with the outside world and acted as a translator to older ciphers, dumber Javascript, etc. Slackware \u0026#43; Emacs \u0026#43; OCaml An old, lower effort screenshot of what I called \u0026ldquo;TalOS\u0026rdquo;\u0026ndash;an Oblivion, specifically Jauffre, themed desktop. It\u0026rsquo;s a pretty stock-standard Arch Linux and Sway affair. TalOS (Jauffre-theme) Void Linux on a Thinkpad T420S running Sway again, I belive. Similar to the Jauffre-themed desktop, this one is an homage to who I call John Gothic. I\u0026rsquo;m also coding in OCaml here, making a sort of rudimentary cat (without really knowing what I\u0026rsquo;m doing) Void \u0026#43; Gothic \u0026#43; OCaml ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/galleries/a-collection-of-desktops/","summary":"Not the kind of physical hardware, I\u0026rsquo;m talking about your desktop environment and wallpaper. This is a gallery of some ones I\u0026rsquo;ve made over the years.","title":"A collection of desktops"},{"content":"I\u0026rsquo;ve never had a \u0026ldquo;safe space\u0026rdquo; on the internet. At least, not for a long time.\nMy adult identity inherited from my teenage years. All my life, online and IRL, I\u0026rsquo;ve gone by a certain handle. Not that I\u0026rsquo;m complaining, it was a good handle which isn\u0026rsquo;t always the case for people who chose their usernames when they were teenagers. But I never got around to creating a different online presence.\nEveryone in my life can see what I get up to online, so I\u0026rsquo;ve always been afraid to truly express myself. Not that I want to say or do anything bad\u0026ndash;it\u0026rsquo;s the opposite. I want to express myself in ways I feel don\u0026rsquo;t fit in the box I\u0026rsquo;ve built for myself in this world. Most people who know me don\u0026rsquo;t know I\u0026rsquo;m interested in photography, or like the music I like, or care about 99% of what I have to say. The result: I don\u0026rsquo;t talk about or do those things.\nInventing this side of myself is the most creative thing I\u0026rsquo;ve done in a long time, and it genuinely makes me excited to go out more, take pictures of my town, and post them on the internet under 0null.one.\nThere\u0026rsquo;s potentially more I want to say on this matter, but I will keep this first post short. I\u0026rsquo;m excited to engage with my online peers\u0026ndash;those who I\u0026rsquo;d say are part of this \u0026ldquo;internet underground\u0026rdquo; scene, sheltering from the fatigue of social media, and I\u0026rsquo;m sure many were motivated for similar reasons to what I am.\nt\n","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/posts/this-is-me/","summary":"My own new persona.","title":"This is me"},{"content":" I believe I named this guy Arnold, Arnold is kind of creepy. Nobody knows if he is good or evil. Arnold A birthday card I drew for a friend. We both really enjoy Bocchi the Rock. Bocchi Wanted to test the cheap alcohol markers I picked up. They are kind of diccult to use, especially picking the colours. This is from the End of Evangellion I believe? I haven\u0026rsquo;t actually seen the movie. Eva A pencil sketch of Fern of Frieren\u0026hellip; but I fucked up the eyes and now she looks dopey as hell 🥲 Fern Frieren. \u0026rsquo;nuff said Frieren A random doodle, probably done in a work meeting. I really enjoy drawing long necks. Get bent He looks threatening, but he\u0026rsquo;s actually a nice guy. Going blind My first attempt at spending a long time trying to draw something properly from reference this year, and my first time colouring a drawing. I think it turned out alright. The hand was really difficult\u0026hellip; Haruhi I don\u0026rsquo;t even know. Hold the phone The Ironclad from Slay the Spire. My first time using alcohol markers, I think it turned out fine, but I didn\u0026rsquo;t spend a lot of time on it. Ironclad Jeff. Jeff who? I don\u0026rsquo;t know either. But he looks kinda spooky? For some reason I decided to cut him our of the page with scissors so I can wear him as a mask maybe. Jeff A super quick sketch of Kurt Gödel. Not my finest work, but I kind of like how the suit turned out. Kurt Gödel Let\u0026rsquo;s all love Lain! Well, I struggled to find a good skin tone in my cheap alcohol marker set, and they aren\u0026rsquo;t the type that really blend together\u0026hellip; like at all. So yeah she looks a little jaundiced. Lain Loosely a self portrait, coloured in pencil, and definitely not knowing how to draw hands whatsoever. Didn\u0026rsquo;t spend a whole lot of time on the drawing itself, because I wanted to focus on practicing pencil colouring, you can see I tried to blend a bit here and there. I like it, regardless. Mildly annoyed man Tony Soprano! My roommate said why does he have a skin condition? Well it\u0026rsquo;s because again I couldn\u0026rsquo;t find any good skin tones! Tony I wanted to experiment with masking tape, so I made a cool little triangle. I think it looks really clean on the page. Tripeer ","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/galleries/artwork-first-half-of-2026/","summary":"Random drawings and sketches from the first half of the year.","title":"Artwork: first half of 2026"},{"content":"","permalink":"https://0null-one.neocities.org/guestbook/","summary":"","title":"Guestbook"}]